[ She has her own horror stories, mostly related to how she'd learned to fight in the first place. If there hadn't been that, maybe she'd have been rendered rageful but useless, unable to follow through on what her new instincts told her. ]
I set myself up for it, I guess. Wanting to be 'strong', I let my father teach me how to be an assassin. Only I never actually planned on killing anyone.
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branchandroot
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Date: 2022-11-02 07:51 pm (UTC)[ She has her own horror stories, mostly related to how she'd learned to fight in the first place. If there hadn't been that, maybe she'd have been rendered rageful but useless, unable to follow through on what her new instincts told her. ]
I set myself up for it, I guess. Wanting to be 'strong', I let my father teach me how to be an assassin. Only I never actually planned on killing anyone.
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Date: 2022-11-02 07:56 pm (UTC)[He never would have made the same one. Not to end up like this.]
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Date: 2022-11-02 07:59 pm (UTC)...the part where I killed a friend and didn't even know it for months?
Didn't have a choice in that.
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Date: 2022-11-02 08:02 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2022-11-02 08:07 pm (UTC)Sort of.
Only one person who's been through it and she's not really...available. She's kind of traveling for work.
Other people know about it, but they don't really know how it feels to be that kind of out of control in your own life, you know?
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Date: 2022-11-02 08:32 pm (UTC)Yeah, it’s… it’s not the kind of thing that’s so easy to understand if you haven’t been through it before.
You ever need anything, let me know? I’m usually awake anyway.
[He doesn’t talk about nightmares, but that doesn’t mean they aren’t happening.]